God the tears are flowing freely. i cant tell you what this means to me. it means probably more than anything right now. my best friends are giving me farewell parties, i dont know what to acknowledge and what to cry about. i wish things were simple. i wish it was easy to forget. i wish the tears weren't so natural. and then, to remind myself that i had decided to be a shuturmurg. an ostrich that doesn't see what lies ahead. an ostrich that buries her head in the midst of an aandhi. the one who pretends aal iz well.
i am that ostrich. or at least i had wanted to be that ostrich. the feeling is strongly being overtaken by the same old me that cries, laughs and sometimes does both at the same time. its a shit feeling, trust you me. you can have a heartbreak, you can feel rejected, but leave your comfort zone and we will see how you take that. momma, poppa and the friends i made in these 26 years, the fear is, the void is easily filled. that is the fear.
i dont wanna sulk, i dont wanna cry but i am a helpless guy.
i am the human you see on the street. the one that cries and gets up on his feet.
the one that laughs and hugs a ton, the one that pretends all is well and then makes a run.
i am your ordinary man who cant take a goodbye. i am that miserable kid who fails and asks why.
i am the girl who will be what you please,
i am the one who will always need a lease.
this could have been easy, no?
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Very nicely written...loved the verse.
ReplyDeletesometime i don't know whats real n whats not. and it buggers me! if this was fiction, damn it was good. if it wasn't just let me know. i dont wanna skip that morale lecture i can give u about u not being sum1 else on d road :)
ReplyDeletehey...i donno wat ur situation is - if u going away for ur own good or some other reason..but trust me wen I say - You'l be fine me dahling :)
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the void wont be filled. It will remain. actually the void wont be created in the first place. and everything will be fine :) its all about H O P E, remember? :)
ReplyDelete@Richa, thanks re :)
ReplyDelete@Raj, it is not fiction! bring it on :D
@Ess, i plan to be fine. am not yet though. and yes, change is a good thing if my situation is to be taken into consideration :)
@Anjali, aaaaaaaaaaaaa >:D<